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| i shouldnt be hurt  Its been awhile since i posted an entry on this blog ay. Well i got something to say. Something yang hurt me so bad lately. Something yang keeps me awake and crying at night. Daripada gambar pun dah boleh tahu kan apa benda nya. I have a huge fight with my bestfriend. A huge fight? No. It is just me yang agak terasa sikit with them. i feel left out. i know diorang kinda busy with all school stuffs. aku sangat faham benda tu. Tapi lately ni aku rasa macam kitorang jauh. I dont know how to explain but i feel hurt.i shouldnt be hurt. But i am. I know my friends are out and about doing their own thing because diorang ada hidup diorang sendiri. and im okay with that. it just sometimes i want to spend most my time with them. you know, hang out together, do things together just like before. everything is gone now. we're falling apart. sampai satu masa aku rasa macam "oh i shouldnt be friend with them, diorang pandai and all. me? i got nothing" ugh. everything became worst last night. but thank god theres a few people yang teman and nasihat aku :) Like what shahril said, "be cool and relax, diorang still anggap you as their bestfriend. it just diorang tak ada masa untuk you" Its okay. im gonna be off doing my own things soon anyways. after spm, after result i'll go. i'll move to sarawak next year and will not coming back. But tak kira besar pun mana pun pergaduhan kita dengan bestfriend kita, at the end of the day kita akan rindu diorang. like me, i miss them. especially her. sebab everyday kita akan bercakap dengan dia. same school, same form in the same gang. well, bestfriend kan. tapi serious sometimes aku rasa macam diorang taknak kawan dengan aku ke? if they want, why they treat me like this?? :( This is hurt. i lost my 2 dearie friends in just one fucking day. or should i say 3? mmmyeah, 3 :( i miss them so much. haih. im off bye 
but it still hurts
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